Love...My Journey

So I see SO many women who just WANT TO BE MARRIED! I can tell you.. I am in the EXACT same boat! There is nothing wrong with wanting to be a wife some day. 

Genesis 2: 20-24 says: 

20 So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds in the sky and all the wild animals.

But for Adam no suitable helper was found. 21 So the Lord God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man’s ribs and then closed up the place with flesh. 22 Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man.23 The man said,“This is now bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called ‘woman,’for she was taken out of man. ”24 That is why a man leaves his father and mother and is united to his wife, and they become one flesh.

We were DESIGNED to be WIVES as women..!!! The moment Adam woke up from the sleep God had put him in.. he called her his " Women... His Wife, " NOT his "girlfriend, baby mama, side chick, "the B word" , his main..." she was his WIFE!!!! 

* Side Note: KNOW YOUR WORTH LADIES AND WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE TO BE CALLED :) 

It is natural for us to want to be someone's help mate and to desire that covenant relationship! BUT don't let all of that get you LOST in translation with God. We can get so caught up in the " fairytale" we see in movies that we forget who we serve! 

I can only tell you guys my " love" journey in hopes that you GET IT! 

I, not too long ago, was SUPER obsessed with marriage...wedding bells... I wanted what I saw in the movies. I was looking at EVERY guy I passed thinking , " God.. is he it..??!??" All I wanted to talk about was marriage.. I would even speak on it with my friends biblically.. But my yearning for marriage became the EXACT thing that separated me from God.

 "WHHHHATTTTTTT...." you might be saying.." how can MARRIAGE.. a covenant thing from God himself.. SEPARATE you from God??!??" Stick with me... 

I was OBSESSED with what my idea of marriage was. I did not want to be  lonely my entire life.. I wanted someone I could lean on when my days got rough .. I did not want to do life " alone." I sought love.. I watched these reality shows where women were seeking love.. they were aggressive.. and pushy.. and got what they wanted. So I became aggressive.. and pushy to get what I wanted..

*** SIDE NOTE: that crap works in " the world" for women.. "worldly men" usually LOVE women like that.. but if you are seeking a man after God's own heart.. he ain't going for all that.. " He that findeth a wife.. finds a good thing.." NOT she that finds her hubby.. :) 

I couldn't see what was wrong with me! I thought " It is perfectly okay for me to want marriage.. " It was not until one day.. my best guy friend was having a conversation with me.. he told me .. in these exact words " Stop being thirsty!" OUCH right.. yeah.. it hurt .. THANK GOD he is a real friend who tells me what I NEED to hear and not what I WANT to hear.. make sure you have those friends around :) 

That statement hurt my little feelings.. lol I was sooo hurt and I went home and just sat in my room. I got on my knees with God and cried out and said " God.. Where is MINE.. I want to be a wife one day.. I want to be in love.. I want a relationship.. is that sooo wrong? " God then.. got real with me.. don't ask God a question unless you REALLY want the answer.. just saying :) 

God spoke to me and told me: "Nicole.. I can not send the one I have for you, to find you until you hide yourself in ME. You want  to be in love.. I am here.. love me.. I love you!... you want a relationship.. build one with ME.. I desire YOU.. and ALL of you. I have someone set apart just for you.. but you need to know ME first so you can be the kind of wife.. you will need to be for him. "

YEP... Blew my world up! 

So I made the decision.. that day.. to let God be " my man." I started just hanging out with God all the time. I took some advice from one of my FAVORITE bloggers : Heather Lindsey.. check her out! She said.. she went on dates with God.. and ate dinner with Him. She became content in God.. the more I did things with God I started to become content in Him. I started to not entertain EVERY guy who came my way. I started to focus on what God was telling me to do. ( this blog being one of the outcomes of my time spent in God.. AWESOMENESS ) . God just became my ultimate homie. We hung out .. we still do. and he is never a disappointing date... He is always a gentleman who " texts" my heart when He thinks about me.. which is ALWAYS... He " calls" me when he wants me in His presence.. He wrote me 66 chapters of love notes.. designed for me. He is the BEST "boyfriend" EVER! 

Although I am still physically " alone" I am never LONELY.. there is a difference! I soak God's presence up.. and I just let my heart be joyed in Him. I stopped focusing on marriage.. which had become my idol.. * Side Note: ANYTHING.. even things of God i.e marriage.. love..friends.. that takes your focus and attention away from your personal relationship with God.. is an Idol.. check your life..and your heart :) 

I can now confidently say.. I am CONTENT in GOD.. NOT stagnant.. but growing daily in who I am in Christ. My view has changed drastically.. and my life is so much more full. YES.. I STILL... want to be married one day.. but NOW.. in God's perfect timing and to God's perfect person for me ( not a perfect person... just the perfect one for me). 

So I encourage you... if you are feeling lonely.. talk to God.. get before Him and let Him mold you into the AMAZING woman He intends for you to be. Your relationship with ANY human WILL NOT be full or purposeful if your relationship with the creator is not flourishing. Let God be your husband right now... my dear sisters.. I will share Him with you :) 

Get married to Him.. before you try and marry one of His sons :) 

God is so in love with YOU!!!!

Nicole L. 

Love...Repair Me

THIS WAS SOMETHING I POSTED A WHILE AGO ON MY TUMBLR. ( THAT I NEVER USE).I KNOW I JUST RECENTLY POSTED A BLOG " LOVE ME..SIMPLY" IF YOU HAVE NOT READ IT.. PLEASE DO SO.. BUT SOMETHING IS TUGGING AT MY HEART STRINGS TO POST AND SHARE THIS WITH ALL OF YOU NOW.. SO HERE IT IS..  I WAS COMING OUT OF A CRAZY STATE WHERE I FELT SO ALONE AND SO LOST.. BUT GOD GOT ME THROUGH.. HERE IS MY STORY : 

LATELY GOD HAS BEEN PRUNING ME.. SHAPING ME AND MOLDING ME. IT HAS NOT BEEN AN EASY PROCESS.. AND I HAVE DISCOVERED A LOT ABOUT MYSELF AND THOSE WHO SURROUND ME. IT IS AN ON GOING JOURNEY THAT I AM NOT TAKING LIGHTLY. I AM ON A MISSION FOR HIS KINGDOM. THIS WEEK I HAVE BEEN SO SAD.. FELT LIKE I COULD NOT GET HAPPY.. AT ALL. EVERYTHING IN MY WORLD SEEMED SO OFF.. I WANTED TO JUST PUT MY COVERS OVER MY HEAD.. AND SHUT THE WORLD OUT. BUT I HAVE OVERCOME THAT AND I AM A BETTER ME.. FOR GOD’S GLORY! I WANT TO SHARE SOME OF THE AWESOME LESSONS I HAVE LEARNED IN THIS TIME WITH YOU ALL.. THEY ALL HAVE OUTCOMES.. GROWING UP.. AND JUST REALNESS THAT ONLY GOD CAN BRING. I WILL BE COMPLETELY TRANSPARENT AND I WILL NOT HOLD BACK. 

I HAVE LEARNED THAT SOMETIMES GOD HAS TO TEAR DOWN EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE IN ORDER FOR US TO GIVE EVERYTHING TO HIM. IT IS LIKE THIS: WE HAVE A HOUSE… IT IS DINGY.. ROACH AND RAT INFESTED, PAINT CHIPPING, INSIDE AND OUT IS JUST A HOT MESS. SO WHAT DO WE AUTOMATICALLY WANT TO DO?? WE WANT TO FIX IT UP. WE TRY TO PAINT THE HOUSE TO MAKE IT APPEAR PRETTY AGAIN. WE WANT TO CALL THE EXTERMINATOR OUT TO GET THE RATS AND ROACHES OUT OF THE HOME. WE TRY OUR BEST TO FIX EVERYTHING SO IT APPEARS TO LOOK OKAY. BUT THE REALITY IS THAT OUR HOUSE IS STILL DINGY, AND NASTY UNDERNEATH THE PAINT. AFTER THE EXTERMINATOR LEAVES, THERE IS A SLIGHT CHANCE THOSE RATS AND ROACHES CAN COME BACK. WE SPEND SO MUCH TIME AND ENERGY .. TRYING OUR BEST TO “FIX” THE PROBLEM, WE FORGET THAT OUR FIXES ARE ONLY TEMPORARY… THE PROBLEMS WILL COME BACK AND YOU WILL BE IN THE SAME SITUATION ALL OVER AGAIN. 

BUT GOD! … GOD IS A GOD WHO WON’T JUST PAINT THE OUTSIDE AND MAKE IT LOOK PRETTY.. HE IS NOT CALLING AN EXTERMINATOR OUT TO YOUR HOUSE TO GET RID OF THE RATS AND ROACHES. GOD IS GOING TO BULL DOZE AND WRECK THAT HOUSE DOWN SO HE CAN BUILD IT BACK UP. GOD TEARS DOWN THE ENTIRE HOUSE, HE TAKES ALL OF YOUR PROBLEMS, FEELINGS, EMOTIONS, WORRIES, AND HE TEARS THEM DOWN. HE REMOVES THE LEFT OVER DEBRIS FROM YOUR LIFE, AND HE STARTS TO RE-BUILD YOUR HOUSE. HE LAYS THE NEW FOUNDATION, HE BEGINS TO BUILD THE NEW HOUSE, HE PUTS ON NEW PAINT, NEW FURNITURE, NEW EVERYTHING. HE TRULY FIXES THE PROBLEM SO THAT WE DON’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT OUR “PAINT PEALING ” AGAIN. HE THEN GIVES US THE TOOLS , SO THAT IF WE EVER HAVE THAT SAME EXACT PROBLEM WITH OUR HOUSE, WE KNOW WE CAN CALL ON HIM TO HELP US RE-BUILD OUR HOME. 2ND CORINTHIANS 5:17 SAYS ” IF ANY MAN BE IN CHRIST, HE IS A NEW CREATURE. OLD THINGS HAVE PAST AWAY, BEHOLD! ALL THINGS ARE BECOME NEW.” 

THIS APPLIES TO THE OLD BELIEVER AND THE NEW BELIEVER. AS CHRISTIANS, SOMETIMES WE “FORGET” WE ARE IN CHRIST. BECAUSE WE “FORGET” TO CALL ON HIS NAME IN EVERYTHING. GOD WILL MAKE US NEW. HE WASHES US CLEAN. HE HAS ALL OF THE ANSWERS TO EVERY PROBLEM. HE MADE US! HE KNOWS WHATS UP! SO WHYYYY ARE WE NOT GOING TO HIM SO HE CAN RE-BUILD OUR HOMES ??!?? GIVE IT TO GOD. LET HIM TAKE IT.. AND MAKE YOU NEW. KNOW THAT IN YOUR TIME OF SORROW, THAT GOD IS JUST WRECKING YOUR HOUSE TO RE-BUILD YOU BACK UP!!!!! KEEP PRAYING, KEEP SEEKING HIM FIRST! KEEP SPENDING TIME IN YOUR WORD AND WITH HIM. I KNOW ONCE HE GOES IN AND WRECKS YOUR “WORLD,” YOU FEEL AWFUL, YOU FEEL DEFEATED, BUT CHRIST OVERCAME DEFEAT, HE HAS VICTORY AND BECAUSE HE DOES, WE DO! ONCE GOD CLEARS ALL THE “DAMAGE” AND DEBRIS, A NEW CREATURE IS BORN, AND HE CAN BEGAN TO OPERATE IN YOUR NEW HOUSE, AND YOU WILL BEGIN TO SEE AN OUTPOUR OF NEW VISION, NEW BLESSINGS, AND NEW HOPE! IN YOUR TIME OF STRUGGLE ALWAYS REMEMBER GOD’S GRACE AND MERCY IS NEW EVERY DAY, AND THAT EVERY DAY HE CREATED AND YOU HAVE TO REJOICE IN IT! 

I PRAY THAT GOD RESTORES IN YOUR LIFE. IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH ANYTHING AT ALL, KNOW HE IS ALWAYS THERE. HE WILL NOT LEAVE YOU OR FORSAKE YOU. YOU HAVE TO OPEN YOUR DOOR FIRST THOUGH, SO GOD CAN INSPECT YOUR HOUSE, SO HE CAN REALLY GRASP ALL OF THE ISSUES IN YOUR HOUSE. YES , HE IS AN ALL KNOWING GOD. HE CAN SEE WHAT IS WRONG AT ALL TIMES, BUT HE STILL NEEDS THE INVITATION INTO YOUR HOUSE, IN ORDER TO FIX IT. 

GOD IS CRAZY IN LOVE WITH YOU,

NICOLE L.

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Love Me...Simply

This is my very first blog post and I am SUPER nervous! I have been both inspired and convinced to write out my thoughts, give advice, and tell the world the vision that God has given me for people. I prayed before I started writing and God said, " Just let it Flow." So here is my first official " flow."

First... I want to talk about what the title of this post TRULEY means! " Love Me..Simply," is what it sounds like... it is a blog about simply loving yourself.

God has called us to AMAZING things ! the bible says we have the ability to do great things.. even greater things than even JESUS did! ( John 14:12).  CRAZY AMAZING right! I am always baffled at how God made creation.. and he designed us for a special purpose! So here it is.. simple.. raw.. and real! LOVE YOURSELF!!!!! You were created for a PURPOSE! God had so much vision in mind when he was molding you in your mother's womb. So all of this crazy insecurity mess needs to GO! You are SPECIAL! Fearfully and wonderfully made ( Psalm 139:14), no one can do you like you can!

I am pretty sick and tired of seeing women who do not know their value and their worth!
You are so PRECIOUS! SO LOVED! Set a standard for yourself and LOVE YOURSELF!!!!! God makes NO MISTAKES! EVER!!!!!

Now, Do not get me wrong.. I have my days where I don't feel good enough.. pretty enough.. smart enough.. but all that is in my head! Take your thoughts to God and cast out all negative emotions! DO NOT be a prisoner to your feelings.. your God is bigger than them!

If you feel like you just can not shake your insecurities here are some tips that always help me :)

1.) Go to God and speak with him. Pray about the way you are feeling. God can change your mindset with just a few words.. let him in! He wants you to see yourself the way He sees you :)

2.) Throw on some worship music and SUBMERGE yourself in God's presence! In his presence.. all your HOT MESS .. MUST GO lol. it is SO true! When you worship God.. you are forgetting about your flesh and how you " feel" and you are focused solely on your passionate love for God.

3.) Get with your friends who build you up. Let a friend know how your day is going and how you are feeling. That is what we are suppose to do as the body of Christ, we are suppose to edify and build each other up. Don't be afraid to talk it out with someone who loves you ! * Side Note- MAKE SURE the friend you are talking to is a true friend.. be sure it is some one you can trust that you KNOW won't spread your business and who will help the issue and not hurt it.

4.) Speak POSITIVE things over your life DAILY. Words have power!!!!!! God SPOKE the earth into motion!!!!! Be careful what you are saying. Wake up in the morning and proclaim " Today I will be the best me I can.. I know I am beautiful and I will see myself as God sees me." I know.. it sounds corny.. but DO IT.. It works :)


Be encouraged!!!!! God has so many AWESOME things for your life.. all you have to do is GRAB them and MOVE! You better start acting like you know who your daddy is!!!! YOU ARE A PRINCESS!!!!! ACT LIKE IT :)

God is so in love with YOU!


Nicole L.

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